(8)I'm frightened by the devil and drawn to those ones that aint afraid (8)



Well, it's been a while, hasn't it.

My pardons to those folk who have been sending me messages and notes- I will get around to these in due time. For me, it's been a bit of an uncertain time at the moment, and I'm having difficulty coming to terms which what this all means.

People say that life doesn't always go to plan, and I guess I really like to think that deep down, even if the waters seem storm-ruffled, that's just the tossing and turning of life in order to reach the calm at the end of the swim.

Perhaps that's what makes the beautiful moments so beautiful. Is feeling the moments of chaos in this life... I just don't ever really like feeling the chaos. I guess that's how it works, hey *chuckles*. The good feels good. The non-good feels non-good. *nods* That seems to make sense.

I'm about to make my way back to my new place closer to Melbourne city with two giant canvases. It's raining in heavy spurts, the wind occassionally tickles my sense of direction and my little room here out in suburbia feels almost part of my memories for good. There are so many more things I have in mind than this move, but at the moment, it seems rather all pervasive. I'm looking forward to the day when I can lie back and finish a book. Y'know, that's what I'll aim to do. I'll finish a book. Seems like a small start, but it's something. And I know I'll feel better for it.

(it's not that I haven't finished books before, it's just that I haven't finished one in a while. And I'd like to. )

So. It's started raining again. I'm about to wrap this up, and carry these giant canvases off into the rain. And out of all the choices I can make today, I'm going to chose to -love- it.

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With all of the best wishes until I return,

~ Sarah Jennifer Dute
xxx



... and she wanders through these dark times and the blind, and smiles as she feels her inner light... we're made to burn and shine on bright...

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