I wake up,
it's a bad dream,
no one on my side...

I was fighting,
but I just feel too tired to be fighting,
g u e s s I'm not the f i g h t i n g kind...



I am free.





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Sarah Jennifer Dute
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I feel indifferent, in a lot of ways, right now.

I have a lot on my mind, that's for sure. But not a lot that really needs to come out. That's something new for me, I think. I feel more certain now, if that helps.


I think I understand you more than I gave you credit for, before, Kat.


I'm not sure entirely what's going on. But I do know what when I just do things, things just happen. *nods* *giggles*

To be caught up in a diamond life,
Freedom and sparkle dust
Sensations of the core of us
From dirt to dust to solid trust
And we are glistening on.


Ahhh dear. Wow. Life, life. Life.



x

Sarah Jennifer
<3

I think the things that I hear in my mind come across differently to me than to how I project them afterwards.

I'm not sure.

I feel a little strange.

How do I project this right?


Let me try again.


There is love,
there is love,
within us all I see it shine,
within us all are stars so bright
a super me and super you
to bring a world so super new
inside us,
love and light.


This is what I mean.

Only I will know what I mean in these purest of moments.

*must find 'cheeky' mood*


Today, as I was walking through the numerous shopping malls that lead the way from Flinders St. to Melbourne Central, I had a random tangent of thought float through my head. (or perhaps it wasn't so random at all) It was just a movie-clip voice over, one of many that I get on common occurence. As I was walking through the halls, looking at the stalls and feeling my own footsteps slow down and be recorded in my own mind, the me-voiceover I heard was something along these lines:


There are some of us in this world who are superhuman. Who understand something, and who feel it within themselves. A superhuman is a real thing. They may come across as crazy, strange, surreal, unusual, or even twisted. They exhalt traits such as that of empowerment, they can be cheeky, and they are free. A superhuman is not so rare as we may think. A superhuman is merely a human who has decided to live their dream.

Grinning, tossing a sprouting onion up and down in my hand, I stepped out into the daylight.



Just know that I love you. x

I may not have much to give
but I have got a purpose
and I am gonna live it


She's a gambler, spinning wheels... -- Elusive, Scott Matthews



I feel all over the place. Very mentally. Physically I feel all, well... just... in a constant adaptation to how I live, how I breathe and my feeding patterns. They really are just that. Feeding patterns. They're just lacking much pattern, really, aside from random.

Mentally, though. That's what I'm going to talk about. Tonight, (or this morning, rather) I'm feeling the bizarre mentalness. I've been away from my love, and things have already started to happen. Do I really care more about romance than my dreams? Isn't romance -part- of my over all whole-dream? I'm sure it is. I guess maybe this will hurt a little more than I've let on. All the same, we'll see. I still feel strangely strong, and strangely transitioning.

I love the text of these journal entrys when you type them. They're so typewriter. <3

I feel like pasts are floating back to me and futures are making way, all at the same time. I feel incredibly creative, ...and... driven. I feel organised, but I don't think I am. I don't quite understand it all, but there's quite a calmness about it... and quite an up-beatness about it at times, too. Am I just describing life? Parts of life? *chuckles* Ahhh, good ole answerable questions.

Also, I've been going through my photography tonight and I'm going to start updating series images. Not just one-offs anymore. I've been on an adventure (which hasn't ended yet, mind you) and there's not just one photo that sums it up. The many work a lot better.

I suppose that'll do for tonight.

Just know that I love you.



Sarah
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